Impian

It has been quite a while since my last update. I am at home all day..didn't go to work..i got terrible and heavy headache..thought of taking panadol but too scared to do so, since i am still in my early pregnancy. Just now, Kak Yong (biras) stopped by our house. She brought pisang goreng tanduk..not sure whether she did on her own or her maid did..well, doesn't matter..we had quite a long conversation over our tea session..(didn't serve her warm tea but camomile tea from Yeos..hehe).

We talked about her plan to go for hajj..umrah..new house and our other biras, nadia who is about to due in another few weeks..argh..she also mentioned that most of her friends, engineers from Titan are now in Arab Saudi..they resigned from Titan & currently working in one of the plants over there..well..people have moved on..explore new things while we are still here..sometime i wonder...would there be such an opportunity for me?..what is my plan for the future?..besides being wife and mother? do i have to sit still..working for others for the rest of my life...i read a lot of magazines recently and most of the stories are about women in businesses..i did ask myself..do i want to venture into business? what kind of busines?

..argh..i still have one dream that i wanna fulfil before i die..that is to further my study..i wanna do Masters..i am in a dire state to go for overseas university..i would direct my search to any external universities everytime i log on to internet...last time i used to log on to brad pitt's and angelina's but now..my priority has changed..My biras is leaving for UK next year for masters in finance. I am all green with jeolousy...anyway she deserved it..she's a smart lady..look up on her...wish her all the bests..

for a lady like me..i might have to resign to my destiny..continue my study locally..heard that Hizam is doing Masters at Uitm and Irwan is taking Accounting professional course..argh..i adore these people who dare to challenge themselves despite heavy workload/ commitments. To me pursuing for Master is not about to show others that you are more capable..but it is more to self satisfaction..those taking Masters must have this kind of feeling which i understand 100%..well..guys..pray for me..hopefully i can pursue my dream soon..people say you can do later..and some say..you have to do it now or never..still confused but i would say..my dream sticks..and i hope God will help me to turn my dream into reality..

I always get emotional when talking about education..this time i wanna do better..no more study for exam but really embrace into it..Semoga ALLAh memberkati impian ini..

Love, Irryn.